Have you ever said to yourself, who cares about that thing that is seemingly small and insignificant but you truly do care about it and it has affected or triggered some emotion in you? I have. I have been doing it for a long time. I was even training myself to do it when my ego would pipe up with small criticisms or lame comments as a command of sorts to quiet it down. I would first say “who cares?” and then I got to shorten that to “WC?” so that it would stop the loop of thinking. It worked for the time I needed it. It was like a stepping stone to get me out of the loop. The thing is that the body knows the truth. I was saying who cares but it was still being processed as very much cared about, by my body. It’s a thought, and thought is energy. I mentioned hucha in a prior blog and in a couple of episodes of my podcast. It’s dense energy that is created and accumulates in the human body. I learned by surrendering like I never have or thought possible that I was storing hucha in my body by denying what was bothering me wasn’t bothering me. One way to transmute and transcend this energy is by allowing it and not being attached to it. By saying who cares, I am not processing this dense energy. It’s going right into my body with other similar energy and accumulating there.
Soon after I started surrendering on a deeper level, I was in my yard digging up the dirt and pulling roots. Some of those roots were stuck in there pretty good and took some effort to get out. I realized as I was pulling them out that this is what the hucha has the potential to do. It can root itself in my DNA. Also, I was digging up and pulling the roots so I could plant flowers. It reminded me that we can do this with dense energy. We can take out what no longer serves us to make room for something pretty. I talk about this and more in a recent podcast episode with the same name as this blog post. I realized that by reviewing at night what I surrendered to during the day, big or small, I could completely let it go. I am able to face it truly no matter what it looks or feels like. I meet it with no judgment for processing. I started doing this as a project in my Yoga Teacher Training class. An example is during one day, a new friend on social media “unfriended” me on Facebook. I told myself that I didn’t care and it didn’t matter. I paused to give it some thought and after allowing the feelings to arise and being in observer mode, I saw that I felt rejected and disappointed so I changed my perspective to allow it and then review it at night. By doing this, I could acknowledge the irritation and ride out the feelings and then let them go. If I denied it, I would store it. As further data attesting to this method’s efficacy I share the following. My best friend started reading Peter Pan with her child and told me of a part where the mom in Peter Pan tended to the thoughts of the children, nightly. During a later visit with my bestie, she described something similar that she is doing with her husband and child. I was able to mirror back to her that she is doing what Mrs. Darling was doing with her children. After giving it a moment’s thought, she agreed and it wasn’t her wasting energy like having thoughts run through her mind like a hamster. This was different and it’s described in the following excerpt from the book. “Mrs. Darling first heard of Peter when she was tidying up her children’s minds. It is the nightly custom of every good mother after her children are asleep to rummage in their minds and put things straight for next morning, repacking into their proper places the many articles that have wandered during the day. If you could keep awake (but of course you can’t) you would see your own mother doing this and you would find it very interesting to watch. It’s quite like tidying up drawers. You would see her on her knees, I expect, lingering humorously over some of your contents, wondering where on Earth you picked this thing up, making discoveries sweet and not so sweet, pressing this to her cheek, as if it were a nice kitten, and hurriedly stowing that out of sight. When you wake in the morning, the naughtiness and evil passions with which you went to bed have been folded up small and placed at the bottom of your mind and on the top, beautifully aired, are spread out the prettier thoughts, ready for you to put on.” This is similar to the practice I was led to perform to reduce the amount of hucha that entered my body. It really helped me to support and continue the practice and have another way to view it. During this whole time, I was getting guidance from my spirit guides not to take my phone or any books to the bathroom with me. They were telling me that releasing waste is a sacred act and is best done with intention. They let me know that it was helpful to ask the lower energies to be put into the wastes leaving my body and ask that it be transmuted into higher frequencies of energy. I am so grateful for these experiences and lessons. They not only allow me to clear myself but also give me tools to share with others so that we might all be sharing stuff like this for our best and highest. I am so excited about the future and living in healthier and happier environments. It starts with each one of us. I send you all tenderness and strength. Love, Carlita